Waking Up in the Dark

Nothing worth having comes without some kind of fight
Got to kick at the darkness ‘til it bleeds daylight

– Bruce Cockburn, Lovers in a Dangerous Time, Stealing Fire, 1984

2018. It’s been six years since 2012, when some-kind-of-wonderful awakening was promised. emember that? I didn’t hear of any extraordinary ascensions at that time – at least not the predicted anti-rapture. Personally, that year ended one of my most difficult life passages, go figure. Bruce Cockburn’s above were relevant, and they still are. Yes, now I can look back and smile, but that took a few years.

Today though, I do see more signs of awakening. 2012’s promise – better late than never? Or was it all meant to happen this way, the darkest crevices of our humanity coming to light, as we simultaneously clear our personal and collective debris. Now, I haven’t spotted any white robed beings surfing off into the ethers on golden Frisbee orbs. Yet it does feel like the darkness is getting kick boxed out of the basement, as many are also finding their way to their golden wholeness.

Many years before her final days in this life, shifts in my relationship with my Mom Read more

5D Ascension Part 1: What up, FAQs

Hello Soul Savvy subscribers,praying mantis

Happy September to you!

I haven’t written in a while, for good reason; more on that below.

I am writing now to share some important news of the “ascension into 5D” that is reportedly upon us. That is, ascension or passage into the fifth dimension. No, nobody is beaming us up; no ships are landing to usher us to Planet Nirvana. Sorry. No, it’s more like living through the current reality, just with a helluva lot more light. That light body is to be installed. You didn’t even have to pay for it… well not with money anyway.

I know that we’ve heard this before. Perhaps you have also bought a lot of beans and batteries at various times of past predictions. So maybe that can lead us navigate this time with more neutrality. For we don’t have to really wake up and smell the meteor showers, or quit the day job, or hitchhike to Mount Shasta. Though that might be fun. No it’s just another round in the curve to make it through.

But there are a few things that might be helpful to know and that is the purpose of this missive. It’s good to be back by the way. I think of you so often you’d probably see it as neurotic. Hope you are faring well.

FAQs about the yeah, uh… Ascension into the 5th Dimension
(strike music, “This is the dawning of the Age of Aquarius… ahhhh oooooooh, Aquarius!!!!)

5D Ascension FAQs
OK, when exactly is this supposed to happen?

September 27th, 2015. So I hear. Light body software arrives. Please make room as you can.

What does this mean?

Well, it’s a long story, and I suggest this source (Matt Kahn) for your research, which I got turned on to thanks to friend Helen and astrologer Stephanie Austin. Let’s try a few definitions first:

Ascension: In the old days, this meant the long ride to heaven, e.g., Jesus being lifted up in his body after rising from the dead and all. Driving home without the car, chitty chitty bang bang without the visible vehicle. Maybe graphics included angels with trumpets on the sidelines, or a big hand to jump upon for the return trip.
Today this means expanding more on an internal level. Rising up into all that you are, with a little help from the cosmos. “All that you are” is getting an upgrade. In this shift, much history of past karma and old beliefs/limitations will be left behind. What will this look like? I don’t know, and not sure how to describe it exactly. If you have ever had a major shift of perception or an experience that changed you on a huge level, and woke up changed, it could be like that. I could be subtle, as this stuff happens on the energy level. It could be less subtle, who knows, and you could wake up with a new plan, decision, clarity… Yep but it could also feel no different than before.
Kind of like hair growing, these ascensions. You may not notice it, but six months later, it’s time for a whole new do.

What … does it mean? What do you do with this?

Well, if you’re like many light workers, you’ve been trying to clear shit and move closer to more meaningful living. At this time, it’s suggested that you ease off from MORE clearing for a time, and just let the stuff that’s ready to be released be given time to exit. It will take some time to just let the old fall away. It’s a good time to slow down, rest deeply, breathe and all that. I know that is easier said than done when these changes are happening. Overall meaning includes: this could be one of the reasons you came, is to be here now, for this little tweak to humanity’s light-psyche-bio makeup.

Is this why I’ve been freaking out?

OK that’s my question probably J. And, well dear travelers through time, there are plenty of reasons to be freaking out right now. I won’t reinforce them by listing them; many have nothing to do with light body activation on the surface, but then again – maybe it’s all a conspiracy in wakeup call choreography. So even if the 5D ascension accounts for 30-50% of the freakout, ‘nuff said. It deserves some attention.

Symptoms to watch for?

Well again, maybe it’s just aging, but joint trouble is named now as a symptom (oh those clever soul marketing gypsies; gag me). As is loss of a sense of direction, loneliness, depression – check out truedivinenature.com under articles for two ascension symptoms articles. I have noticed more fear, and under that, hopelessness that things will turn out right (this seems to be ancestral and I’ll be glad for it to exit. The better mantra of course is, everything always turns out right. Member the simple gifts song? Sing it, sing it). Meanwhile, a lot of great things are happening. So there’s plenty of confusion and mixed blessings.

Under the hopeless is grief, and that is maybe just me (see below). And under the grief???

It is a … sense, a desire to arrive at a still point. I have never used “zero point” nomenclature, but here I do. It is a wish to just come to stillness, a fertile void of stillness, a restful, rested holding of all that has gone before as it meets all that will be. And in this meeting, time stops for a time. This meeting of past present and future is without attachment, without needing to follow any rules, without knowing what’s next.

Oh yeah, I love this zero, unknown stuff too… Change too I swallow as easy as so many kale smoothies…

What should I do?

There is a call for trust. A call to love your heart, as Matt says, like never before. We’ve always known the heart is the key, right? His instructions: Anything that is happening, love that. Fear? Love the one who is afraid. Unclear? Love it love it love it. Messed up communication with a good friend? Ah, love the buffoon. Oops, that might not have been very loving, the name calling there, but hey, it is a process. It’s very personal how this will impact you. Each one is a unique hologram, out here playing with the fire.

One step in front of the other. Just keep moving, as my soul friends suggested Sunday. Even if that means arranging deep rest and rejuvenation. Giving yourself time for the downloading, before this sacred upload.

OK more later. Send your additional questions and let’s reactivate the soul savvy net. I do apologize for my absence – I’m not thinking you may have even noticed with the insane pace of late. And here is the why, briefly.

On March 5th, 2015, my dear youngest sister died. Unexpected, still not clear what happened (test results still pending). This has really shaken up my world. Is that separate from this shake up? Maybe not. It has certainly broken open my heart, which could be a good thing.

At any rate, I am still returning to full speed, still grieving deeply. More later, and very much love to you.

Blessings and light hugs,meditation
Denise Barnes

Soul Mission Control Update: 11-11-14

Sekmet, the Egyptian Goddess
Sekmet, the Egyptian Goddess

The group, (John the Baptist, Areeanna of the Pleiades, and Octavia the High Priestess), Channeled by Denise Barnes for Soul Savvy subscribers. To subscribe, please visit soulsavvy.net – or if here, see that box on the side of the page to join.

Greetings dear kin, and bows and blessings to you in this sacred number day. Indeed, the elevens are one of our channels “home” resonances, as her main child hood house had the # 111. Just a side note (smiling). Breathe with us for a moment. Fully exhale, and do it again… Do what our channel calls the horse lips on the way out, or anything else that will lighten your mood and loosen your jaw. Ah, thank you. Now we begin.

Holy cannoli, as the Italian Robin might say, and whoa whoa whoa. Look at this changed landscape – or is it land or water, or fire, or air? Its combustible it seems, it is moving, it is transitory, as in full of meaningful transits. We speak of the last two months and overall the fall quarter, since equinox. Are you still breathing? Because that was one cosmic cardio-demanding lap. High intensity dear friends. And this is where the FIT is more important than the FAT or lack of it, the heart more than the surface appearance, the quality of the passage versus getting anywhere in particular.

Indeed, where are you now? Well, it may not be clear, and this week, this day, this mini-arrival time – it is not so much about knowing yet, all that you need to know. This will be revealed, but slowly. Now it is time to catch up a bit, to practice appreciation and self-care, to begin to notice what has changed. It may be slight, it may be huge; but something has happened in the last 6 -8 weeks, has it not? Let your heart answer it. You can also look at your calendar to just see what you’ve been up to – because likely your calendar has been so full that you might have forgotten a few, just a few, huge accomplishments.

These accomplishments might have been a small leap of faith, like stepping forward to follow an intuition that involved some risk. It might have been speaking honestly or more deeply with a loved one. It might have been Read more

Fall Equinox ’14 Channel from ‘the group’

Greetings and blessings to your wonderful eyes and the curvy road that has brought you to this reading.

We are the group, an informal current nomenclature, for a group of guides and Ascended Masters that work with Denise; John the Baptist; Areeaana, three sisters of the Pleiades; and Octavia the High Priestess. Welcome to our energy; feel the support and happy holding of your journey that will transmit through these lines, through this black and white text, into your computers and other more modern devices. We delight in the many ways of transmission that connect us to you.

Welcome to Equinox 2014, and dare we say, don’t hold your breath, although it will be tempting to come to a complete standstill at this sacred time of balance. Yet it is breathtaking, this moment of time, this ¾ point of 2014. What a year, yes? We remember our year ahead reading, in January past that noted the need to release anything unneeded. Our metaphor then was boarding a space ship that had limited storage space. And this will be an ongoing reality as the parallel corridors of time squeeze upon each other.

The old way and the new way are the main contenders for your attention. It is the big squeeze time, and you must be slick and you must be skinny, metaphorically speaking. Flexible, well-oiled, lubricated and laughing, Read more

Soul Muscle Strength – Stinky Resilience

SAM_4055Well, the long strange trip continues, does it not soul savvy friends? I think that it’s a safe guess that you are also still trucking on, to use some sixties lingo. (The dead do not read ezines; I would think they have better pastimes.) And these cycles keep repeating. If you’re doing even the minimal awareness practices, at each spiral’s curve you evolve more and more. And but of course, many of you are doing the mega awareness work and soul growth and muscle building. That means quantum leap frogging, at times. Good on ya!

Whew it’s a hairy road, and one I have near given up at a few curves, or certainly wished to crawl under the proverbial rock and only practice the sub-minimal soul awareness work. My best laid plans have sometimes upended me like a mean spirited horse. Yet who knows what those setbacks will mean in the end; I know they’ve taught me a ton. Humility, for sure, the importance of forgiveness; what gifts! And now they call me again to attempt brilliance with renewed vigor.

My grandfather was a fisherman, and I can remember a plaque on his wall – “Old fishermen never die, they just smell that way”. Well, there might be a plaque to fashion regarding soul work and soul dreams. Hmmm… Soul dreams never die, they just smell of surrender? (Your ideas welcome!)

To borrow another saying, it ain’t over ‘til the Fat Lady sings… Though she’s been humming at times, and perhaps hemming and hawing, that thar Fat Lady ain’t yet belting out any final blues tunes here at Soul Savvy headquarters. In fact, all of the threads of this colorful and soul-gifted tapestry are coming together in a whole new conglomeration. Universe conspiring right along too, that sneaky smirking wench…


So I’ve got ideas, and – I’d like to hear from you too. Read more

Emergence! Dark Night Teachings

“If you are striving to be equal to your destiny and worthy of the possibilities that sleep in the clay of your heart, then you should be regularly reaching new horizons.” John O’Donohue, Anam Cara

I was speaking with a dear friend last night, and come to find, she also experienced a ‘dark night’ of some length recently. The last three months – Nov, Dec, Jan – had been intense. I consider this friend to be in the “advanced” position – has done the inner work, emotionally intelligent, expert communicator, doing soul savvy work. It’s echoing from a number of places that there is still some solstice revisioning going on.

We are moving through it. I just want to remind you if you’re a bit disheartened, scrambling and crawling as best you can through the transition, you’re not alone. It’s tiring! It’s also the end of winter… just about.

So with spring on our doorstep, and a new Tibetan/Chinese new year/Water snake having arrived, let’s review – and try to entertain – the benefits of the dark night for the soul mission stalkers. Why is it best to be run through the ringer now? There may be a benefit yet to this clay heart hibernation time.


Your soul mission, distinguishes you from others who might be more of the “watchers” – those who have chosen a less demanding lifetime, but yet are still here to witness the changes. That’s why you feel that urge to be at your creative and purposeful edge. You came to contribute something critical to this particular river of time.

The recent passage through the ‘Solstice Chamber of Truth’ (SCOT) may have highlighted blind spots. Feels like a hassle – but these could be patterns that needed to be cleared before you waltz more riskily and jauntily to your soul mission dance card. Read more

Soul Mission Control Update – Jan 2013 – Business Unusual

Greetings Fellow World Changers,

Ever hear those cosmic instructions that imply, “Those of  you who’ve been keeping up with the inner work should now be experiencing ease and abundance”? And that those who are a bit behind schedule may still be experiencing challenges, technical difficulties, or need expert assistance? Sure, you want to be in that first group, right? And yeah, speaking for myself, not “there” yet. Progress is always going on, yet, in terms of the complete, Heaven on Earth picture… well it may be a few spirals ahead down that thar road, I’m guessing. Ohp, there’s that snake again…

It’s all so relative. It’s good to keep in mind that “not there yet” is simultaneously coexisting with the truth that “you’ve come a long way baby”. And, if “THERE” may ultimately mean our death, until then, there is always a next growth edge. There is time.

So take heart if you’re feeling behind schedule, or if 2012 included some challenges and left you humbled. What if it’s perfect timing after all, and these challenges are the perfect fertilizer for the new you?

Here is my sense of the main points to acknowledge at this point in time, late January 2013. That was one long dark night that passed, one long 26,000 year cycle. And a relatively peaceful death/ending, considering the potential mayhem possibly averted.

**Death/Birth Reminders**

1) Birth and Death are messy and may involve GOO, especially if you’re a caterpillar or mammal. If human, it’s a mess, and your next steps post birth may not be immediately clear for a few decades.

2) Birth and death involve contraction and expansion. As you expand into the new world/new you, you may first need to shrink, to contract, to review old patterns with that final compassionate eye gleam.

3) Tis a good time to clear remaining regrets, and practice forgiveness of self and others – start with the big things. Resource / book for this area: No Regrets, by Hamilton Beazley. Just wonderful.

4) It’s not too late for anything – and can be especially useful to anchor an inspired daily morning practice.

**Where is the NEW WORLD?**

The Alien landing didn’t happen, or they’re late – maybe they need a few months of slack too.

It could also be true that the new world is here – yet living thus far on the “energy” or subtle plane. This is my experience; it’s here, but you need to choose to enter it. The doorway asks to be greeted with a few breaths, a few moments of silence.

TRY THIS: When you have a break, Stop, close your eyes, breathe, and get still. Ask to be show the new energy and see what you get. It may just feel like a buzz, or more light, or a presence or sense of connection.
Once hooked up, even if it’s a bit sketchy, you can ask, What is important to do today? You can consult with the new energy on any decision or question you have. Throughout the day, you can ask to be reconnected to this energy, to refresh your perspective, just by getting still again. My comedy character Tina says it simply: Stop, Be Still, and Chill.

**HOW to get on board with the New Energy**

I see the new energy as a type of invisible conveyor belt. It’s an awareness practice to get on it at first. For optimum New World access, it’s best to clear the old fears, patterns, grudges, regrets and those old stories that keep you small, that keep you anchored in the old way.

This is why it’s actually great if you see an old pattern (that you hoped you were done with) in full living color. It’s a great opportunity to examine the old you, and anchor in the new you, the being you’d like to shift to.  (more on this shortly)

A good practice: compare notes re: your days on the New Walk Way, with those days that are more “business as usual”. Track and journal your findings about the differences you can see.

A few possibilities of the New Walk Way:

·         More truth and authenticity in communication that enlivens work and relationships

·         Old abandoned dreams are revived, and reborn with more ease

·         Synchronicities, signs and help arrive to affirm and guide your path

·         Work piles and task lists are cleared faster and with more ease


Last note dear Reader – Are you still breathing as you read this? Is your brain/heart/spiritual center/organ family still functioning? Well, THAT is nothing to sneeze at. You had to push your head and many levels of bodies and consciousness through the cosmic cervix last month. Phew! It’s OK to rest and gently get your new bearings.

If you survived half way intact, thank you. Your presence has grounded earth’s transition. While hardly anything is completely clear yet, your survival and continued presence took a ton of intelligence, heart, persistence, stamina, and plain old fashioned stubbornness. In New Jersey, you’d get the “scrapper” medal. Without understanding exactly how, you have completed a huge piece of this life’s work, to have made it to this point.

Now that we’ve made it this far, be alert for reinvention. Breathe into the New Walk Way. I’ll be back shortly with more ideas and support options to make the most of this year.

Talk to me on the blog below – does this resonate? Are you so OVER this discussion? Have you had amazing downloads and visions already?

Here’s to a buzzing light year,

Denise Barnes

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